October 2, 2006
What is going on?
I sit here today watching a news conference. The officer on the television is saying that a 32-year old man stormed a one-room school house armed with guns and planks of wood to secure the doors. Once inside he divided the boys from the girls. He released 15 boys and kept and bound between 10-12 young female students, ranging in age from 6-12. He proceeded to shoot all of the girls, killing some of them execution style before shooting himself. The man had no criminal record. He left suicide notes for his wife and children. Two hours after walking his own children to their bus stop, he was shooting innocent little girls. He said in rambling fashion in one of the notes he left that he was getting "revenge" for something that happened 20 years ago. These children were not even a glimmer in their parents’ eyes 20 years ago and now at least three little girls are dead and several others are fighting for their lives. Last week was Colorado, now Lancaster County in Pennsylvania. . . Amish country Pennsylvania.
When Columbine happened many years ago, I was camped out on my living room floor working on a project for one of my classes for my Masters degree in Education. It was Earth shattering then, as I worked on my teaching degree. Once I was a teacher it was terrifying and simultaneously annoying: the multiple school evacuations due to bomb threats scrawled on bathroom mirrors, the afternoons spent camped out in the stadium freezing since we were unable to retrieve any of our personal belongings before evacuating the building yet again, the inquiries from administration as to which students went to the bathroom and when to try to figure out who might have been behind the threat of the day. When I gave up my teaching career, I was especially glad to be done with the bomb threats and the security measures we were constantly being made aware of as they changed and evolved along with each new threat.
As a parent, the increasing amount of school shootings is even more alarming and unsettling. Years ago, other students were the shooters; now they are grown men who are entering our children’s schools and wreaking havoc. Before I had children, I considered homeschooling as an option because sending a child to a school just seemed terrifying to me. I talked myself out of it when I realized my daughter is as stubborn as I am and that it would probably just not work. I rationalized that this doesn’t happen in my area, that the media exaggerates and over reports on these stories, that the instance is actually very rare. Today, it happened close to home and every parent has to be thinking that if it can happen in a one-room Amish school house, My God, it could happen in my child’s school.
How is a parent supposed to protect a child at school? You can hope and pray that the school has safety measures sufficient to protect your children. You can pick and choose where you send your child based on which school you think is the safest. But let’s be honest. . . schools were not built to withstand being stormed by lunatics. School used to be a place where children were safe, where the biggest threat was a bully student. Now, there are grown men, armed with multiple weapons, who threaten our children’s safety and lives.
The only kind of evacuation I ever had to deal with as a child was the mandatory fire drill on occasion. Now children are exposed to much more. When I was a child, I played outside for hours at a time with my friends. Our yards and sidewalks were safe places. Now our playgrounds, sidewalks, and yards are tainted by the memory of Samantha Runnion. Our schools are the target of revenge seeking monsters.
Today I am mourning the loss of these innocent little Lancaster county girls. I am also mourning the fact that my children will never have the kind of care free childhood that I had. And I am angry as hell that I am raising children in this type of world. They deserve so much better.
It’s such a hard thing to figure out…how do we raise our children to feel safe and secure, in such a scary world? I don’t want Maya to be afraid to play outside, afraid to go to school, afraid to go places without us. But she is already much more fearful than we were at her age, and I am sure it is because she is much more limited. She isn’t allowed to go to the store without us. She isn’t allowed to go to the park without us. And I’m not even THAT paranoid. But we live in a city, a congested area, and I don’t trust the world anymore.
It breaks your heart.
The Amish school shooting shocked the heck out of me too. (It prompted my hubby to quip: “Well, it wasn’t Amish-on-Amish violence, was it? They’d just throw shoo-fly pies at each other.”)
I read a couple of international websites and on every page was that same story. I was just thinking the what you wrote, a parent wants to think their child is safe and protected at school, but really, they’re quite vulnerable. You have to wonder how these nutcases can be stopped.
There are bomb scares here too and the kids have to swelter out on the bleachers all day until they’re released.
I just don’t understand what this world is coming to. I remember the half hour walk to my elementary school. There is no way kids can do that now.
What I wonder is that the article said there were several adults in the school. Why on earth would an adult leave, and leave helpless children alone with an armed madman? Truly a shocking tragedy.
It’s a sad, sad world we live in :-(. The thing is how much worse has the world really got or is it just the advent of mass media on such a global scale that brings these things to light minutes after they occur all over the world.
The worse school massacre ever occured in 1927 in Bath, Michigan when a chap (who was a school board member!) blew up the school then in the commotion detonated a second device in his vehicle. He first killed his wife, then 38 more in the initial explosion, then another 5 by blowing up his vehicle and another died of injuries later. A total of 45 died and 58 where injured. So it goes to show that this sort of person has been around for a long, long time – it’s just that we now all know about them a lot quicker!
So it’s not even much use to pine for the “good ole days”!!
There’s no easy answers. These aren’t the kind of questions we shoudl even be asking.
More and more, our children’s school are goingto look more like prisons, except, instead of keeping the bad people in, they will be to keep them out.
Everyday it gets worse and worse. I don’t have children, but if I did, I would be a basket case.
Yea really, if your not safe in Amish country….where the hell ARE you safe?
A shooting happenned here about 2 weeks ago. In a college.
that was horrible…